Shine

Learning to let go

-----------Of yesterday--------of the past-----a past--Atlaas

Offered a glass, of cool water to now

Embraced it. Kept it. Stayed in it's company.

It "takes time", they say

"Not overnight", they say

"Patience!", they say

..................... A patient of patience, I say

We break up to make up, like the Stylistics sang

Today Is a new day

11 is the number played

An end to my woes

Saved

I don't walk on eggshells no more

Too many cuts & scars on that floor

Made a truce with healing

Sun rising

It has begun

Walking on tumbled crystals, each, one by one

No dream of mine is to deep to reach

Too low to seek

Too much to keep

Too blind to see

My wildest dream

Seeing Mother-Earth on her side, smiling in all shades of green

So..ul cleanse me from all the negativity I may have projected, injected or accepted

Inordinance stands only to be abjected

 

 

 

Flying

... over the ocean with ease
Flying without need
The clouds
The sea
Love crystals
A book
Warm tea--me
Are you still there?
No I'm not
I'm riding the mountains waves
Winded
Because I love with height
Goodnight
I found refuge in the crease of the sky
A wanderer
I wonder where I go sometimes

 

Our Hearts Found (a match when) ..

Your kiss melted my ears

Watered my eyes

Your kiss gave me life

The Moon showered your lips

The Sun held mine firm

We ignited the hereafter

To come faster

You held me down with an invisible hand

I obeyed visibly sparked

You untied the knot that bound my wings, so I flew light in your night sky

Cried in the arm of your lip

You held on and showed me "won't let go"

Hugging me internally so

 

 

 

 

 

Absolute (deep inside one) ..

 

 

Tears Ov Love

Dear One Who Sees,

A vision of thanks

Came within a matter of space

Hurt stretched out it's arms

There it was embraced unharmed

Could it be a prayer answered in a day?

Surely, he rewards a sincere heart swiftly in this way

Oh, to say I love you just wasn't enough

Covered in Rose quartz, the light born from your sun 

You moved my heart and even so shaken tears

I shall hold your hand soon

And walk with you, all the way through

 You felt my heart move

Without having said I Love You ... you knew

Gazed into my eye's and out-flew, the words ..."I Love You Too"

                                              

Signed, A Favorite Friend To Be

Mahalia Jackson - Come Sunday  

Watching Ascension

  Leaves me breathless

I always thought you were to good for me

Then .. and only then
I stopped thinkin'

Did more blinkin'

Stuffed the hole that had me sinkin'

It was you

You was my lasting need

A cushion to my fallen knees

An unconditional push to fly free

In your passion was the voice of a raven croaking--Black and Shiny

Play piano and I the sax

Lets show the world how long our song last

May our souls reach more together--pick up from their end and grow into no never 

I finally know

No part of my inside will refuse to show, nor ever say no

 

"If you could see a lighter day, you really don't care if you die before dusk. I was fumblin' around in the dark. God opened the door and there you was"

-Jaynee

"I never knew you was so satisfied with me like that"

-Teekay

The Safest Place

Hold me under the water

Whisk me through the waves

Hold me under water

Give us a new name

Hold me under the water

This way--I won't slip away

 

Transition

It pains me to look at me

It wakes me to understand

I wish to love that part of me which is rotten, that part of me which is sick

I search to discover a broken soul

A broken sole

A broken spirit

A broken secret

A kiss made--not given, taken or blamed

How does one gain?

A love that needs 1

A love that needs no one

This love knocks

Waits no more

I turn to open the door

Fall into sores to soar

Broken yet reborn 

 

19

 

Intoxicating is the power you hold

Over and under

My feelings you stole

Do you know how less cold it would be, if you were to share this world with me?

I figured it out--at least 1/2 of it no doubt

Just when I concluded my dreams meant nothing

Neptune with open arms hugged me without bluffing

I saw it as you and felt the harmony of your heart wash away my blues

Passion like eating a ripe fruit, in mist of the hungry

Share me

Earth is the container that water fills

I'm Earth, Your Water

So fill

Tune into me with your whips, chains, security daggers, pretty ears, quiet heart

Long hearing

Lets play

A sensual chess game

I care 2 live on the highest mountain, sail above and beneath the deepest sea

Run barefoot on the greenest pasture, mold and lead a flock of sheep

Spend 1 night in the darkest cave then rise with the sun

I care 2 measure my height with the tallest tree

Look into nothing and say "Be!"

I invite you on this journey

I see you from the inside that's where you shine

I sense the steepest part of us hugging tonight

Feeding-receiving-giving-needing-pleading-heating-reading-bleeding-eating-seeing-beating-freeing-whipping-leaving--bruise tar scar dark

Hollow rain

Soft black mystery chain

Swinging Breeze

Singing hard wood melancholy birds 4 friends

Clothes torn-light scorn-mud drip-soft lips

I swim in the shadow of a naked lake

My clothes you take, tear and post as bait

Your gravitational pull is splitting me open

You spray thoughts in me that burn like salt on a wound

A pleasingly displeasing masterful art of torture

Even through the distance it feels good

I'm fr agilely armoring up my insides to say

I've never felt this way

The every part of me you've reached

Carve your ab originality inside of me

Lurk your needs within my womb

Waiver this world's injustice

Use me to deliver your verdict

Play with my sensibility

Rock me in care

Every part of you I wish to wear

Tuning into your heartbeat like a smooth snare

Watching you with my eyes closed

I'm needing you through these fine clothes

When I have no words yet I speak, I come to find the depths of me..

I was my purest in my mother's womb, so happy with such little room

I'm stuck in a cage
A bird with shark teeth
A bus with no wheels
A tear that never falls
into nothing.
A smile wide as your eye
A heart soft as spoiled butter
I want to get away
Pick my feet up and tell them to go
I just want to go
I want to speak the language of a black bird
I want to land on air
I want to feel light
I want to see shine
And meet time
I want to come out of my mother's womb again
I want to cry that first cry
I just want to come out
I just want to go
I want to get away
From you pain
Drenched in your rain
Stars have been loyal
They find me in the dark
I look up to find their start
They laugh in numbers
My breath trails their ray
I try to follow & fall on my face
Pick my feet up and tell them to go
They move but they move slow
perfectly.
With reason
naturally ...
I just want to go
Speak the language of a black bird
Land on air
Feel light
See shine
Meet time
Come out of my mother's womb again
And cry that first cry

 

Four

How does one oppose strain
My tongue rests--doesn't know what to say
Reaching has been strenuous
Sight is shattered
Logic seems ambiguous
No right nor wrong
Oh, to remain calm this long
What part of your off can I turn on
Clouds up there keep us apart
My heart then rests alone in the dark
There light becomes a mere illusion
Heard and felt in caves of confusion
Hurt surpassing the Great Wall
Scratches a pit within my heart
Shedding a pride dark as pain
I shut my eyes and there you lay
Light shines
Rain flows
Touch more
No sores
Mellow
There I drift
On a sorrow splintered board
That often shifts
In your mist
Air becomes breathtakingly missed
Quiet
Imagine your vein ripped out of you whole
Your blood the same--running like water
To look in your eyes
Aches me in such a way
A portrait of possibility that just rushes me to wait
Pondering on words that may call you to play
I get through trying to pick a star in the day
So when it's night
I shut my eyes and there we lay
Light shines
Rain flows
Touch more
No sores
Mellow
There I drift

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Writing is the blanket that covers me when I'm cold

A place within where I find Allah and me whole

Parts of stories that go untold

It is here where acceptance begins to unfold
Where individuality lies between two likes--parallel in contrast

In this time birds and colors become delightful to see

Vodou, Santeria, Horus, Candomble, Osiris,Obeah, even Isis
                                To me...

Channel a language not spoken frequently
As though I hear them say they miss me

Like the aroma flying from a slow burning in scent
Soothingly sweet
A painting of liberation brushed from desert to sea

At a steep price of absolutely free
Our legs can travel any place abroad

Out our minds, in our spirits, our likeness in him tall

Lost with a cause--Am I
Falling into restricted space
Jolting at no safe pace
Looking to anything like breath that means Moor
A symbol of affection heeds to open a door
Connected to a vibe filled patent floor
Flows inward a need to walk run and run some more
Darkness named infinite cared to map this road
On it I walk, run and run some more